Keziah Lewis should be savoring the summer before her senior year of college.
She should be commanding a stage with her a capella group.
"Music just makes me happy," she said. "It makes me feel like nothing bad ever happened to me, or nothing bad could happen to me."
She should be experiencing the beauty of young love with her boyfriend.
"He is the most loving and caring person I've ever met."
Instead, she spends her days at OSU Wexner Medical Center, re-training her mind and body.
Abilities she once took for granted: standing, balancing, raising her arms, are now labors that leave her breathless.
Keziah's journey to this place in her life began with what was a family tradition, what was supposed to be a night of fun with her boyfriend Tyler Jarrell.
"We just went to the Fair. And that was gonna be our last big hurrah before I went back to school, before he went back to school too. And it ended up changing everything."
It was July 26.
"The last thing I remember was getting the tickets to go to the Fair."
What Keziah's brain protects her from remembering, a bystander's cell phone captured in horrifying video too graphic to share in its entirety.
Clarissa Williams is Keziah's mother.
"My youngest brother told me, I need to get to the hospital quickly. He told me there was an accident, that Keziah was on a ride, and there was an accident."
When she arrived at the hospital, she found her daughter, "Pretty broken, broken up. And she didn't come to for a long time."
"It was pretty scary and freaky to wake up someplace and not know how you got there," said Keziah.
"And when she did, she said, 'What happened mom?' And then she asked me, 'Where's Tyler?' And then she asked me if she was gonna die," said Clarissa.
"And that one, I don't know, that one was easier to ask than 'Where's Tyler?'" Keziah said. "Because I feel like, I don't know, coping with the fact that you might die was easier at the time than thinking, oh, someone that you were potentially going to spend the rest of your life with, has just died. And your life has been forced to a stop."
Keziah and Tyler were riding the Fire Ball.
It was their gondola that snapped off mid-swing, catapulting them both into the air.
Tyler died of blunt force trauma.
Keziah somehow survived, but with barely any part of her unbroken.
"I broke my back in two places, fractured my hip, broke my pelvis, broke my ankle, fractured my shoulder and my neck."
She endured nearly five months in the hospital, a dozen surgeries, and countless hours of physical pain and emotional uncertainty.
"It was not knowing. Not knowing how it would all end. That was hard. Because no matter how much I wanted, no matter how hard I wanted to get back to where I was, I was being met with a whole bunch of people saying, you can't. You won't. It's impossible."
"To hear her scream, cry out, it was very hard," said Clarissa. "They would have to change the dressings on her back, we would turn music on, and I would hold her hand so she could focus on the music and not the pain. I'd just hold her hand and tell her, whatever pain you feel, just squeeze as hard as you can. I'm right here with you."
In those darkest moments, Keziah says it was her mom, her music, and thoughts of Tyler that helped her through.
"He would always be crossing my mind. I would have conversations with him in the hospital. I'd always think, 'He just went somewhere. He'll be back.' And then his Senior Night passed, and I got a bracelet that said, 'Finish for Tyler 2018.' And that became my goal: finish for Tyler. Because he wouldn't want me to give up. And he wouldn't want me to end up dependent and sad for the rest of my life. He would want me to get back out there and go fight for my dreams."
And that's what Keziah does, every day.
Her success measured in steps, and a spirit that won't quit.
"Just seeing her grow, seeing where she was at until now, is amazing," said Clarissa. "She makes my heart smile. And she's an inspiration."
But don't be fooled.
Nothing about this is easy.
"Mentally and emotionally I'm ready to go back to the way things were before, to an extent, but physically it's kind of holding me back. And it's really discouraging when I think, well, this might be for life," said Keziah.
Asked how that makes her feel, she said, "Just really sad. It's really hard. And it's really hard on all the people around me. Because they see me from an outward perspective they see me growing really fast in such a short amount of time. So they're like, 'Yeah, you're so good! You're doing it! You're like awesome.' And I'm kind of like, 'Well I don't feel awesome.' So, it's just really discouraging, and kind of heartbreaking at some points in time."
Among a sea of questions about what's ahead for her, Keziah and her family are certain of one thing:
What happened last July 26th, shouldn't have.
"Everything you do affects someone," she said. "Even the simplest things. Especially when you have a really important job. You have to think. And you have be cautious and careful of others."
They say accountability matters to them.
"Very much so," whispered Clarissa. "To make it safe. To make it safe."
"I myself was very lucky in this situation," said Keziah. "And a lot of others aren't. Or weren't. Or won't be if it continues to happen. If things like this continue to happen, things that are supposed to be memory-making and great experiences and traditions will just end in horror and sadness. And that's not how things like the Fair should be."
There is ongoing litigation resulting from the Fire Ball accident.
The four victims most severely injured, plus the family of Tyler Jarrell, were involved in coordinated negotiations with Amusements of America, the owner and operator of the Fire Ball, and two of the companies that inspected the ride.
Those settlements resulted in seven-figure settlements for at least two of the victims.
The terms for the other victims have not been made public.
But this is not the end of litigation.
Attorneys for the victims say they still plan to file lawsuits against the manufacturer of the Fire Ball.
That could come within the next few weeks.
State lawmakers are also considering increasing oversight of carnival rides, including hiring more inspectors.
The legislation, dubbed “Tyler’s Law” for Tyler Jarrell, also calls on the state to look for inspectors who have an engineering background or who have been certified by a national association that trains ride safety officials.
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Music has played a big role in Keziah's life, and in her recovery.
A member of the University of Cincinnati Vocaholics, an a capella group, Keziah and her mom say music helped her through some of the darkest periods of her recovery.
"Music just makes me happy. it makes me feel like nothing bad ever happened to me. Or that nothing bad ever could happen to me."
You can watch Keziah talk more about music in the player below.